Ain't No Supermom

Category: Brain

  • over!

    over!

    My Linda and I were talking about if I were to ever write a book, the title would be:
    ….and then…

    My life is drama. It is one thing after another, then another, oh wait….and then another. ER visits, health scares, behavior issues, Dr. appt’s, brokeness, it keeps coming. Is this the average life? Really? Because I am pretty sure if you are a new friend, and either found this blog or heard about all this, you would slowly back away. Possibly with a fire extinguisher in hand. I don’t blame you! Just know with all the scary stuff are unmatched blessings that make us smile, remind us we are loved and protected, and keep us not scared. Moving on. Actually, lets pause here, I am giving you fair warning, this post is erratic and as good as it’s going to get. Sadly it’s taken 2 weeks to publish this draft.

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  • Half way update!

    Half way update!

    Do I celebrate? Or tuck myself in bed and call it a day? Content with chips and sparkling water…Crazy headaches, nausea, exhaustion, and generally not feeling too hot has taken up residency. I am on steroids now, and they have helped the headaches in a big way. Now I will inherit fat face, which comes free gift with steroids. What a deal;)  Along with, well…

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  • Happy Hat Hunting

    How we spent our Sunday:
    looking at hats-fun!
    M:”Chad do you like this one?”
    C:”no.”
    M:”What about this one?”
    C”No, it looks like it sits too high on your head.”
    {repeat for 2 hours}
    Yah, that is because my head is fat.

    Can I just make a suggestion hat makers of the world? SIZES.  o/s is not acceptable. Even toe rings have sizes, and really-who buys those anymore? There aren’t many of us that actually buy these things…but those of us who do want to cover our scalps in style and preferrably by not cutting off the circulation of what is left of our brains.
    The end result of this glorious expedition? I am the proud owner of 3 new fedoras and I owe Chad something magical for keeping me company and not telling me my head is fat;) I love you Stink.

  • I’m baaaaaaack….

    LAST update on this brain issue/ recovery. Don’t cry for me Argentina. The truth is I am doing well! Back to normal in almost every department-Huge praise. This whole enchilada has taught me more about humility than I would like to admit, but that is good. I needed it;) God’s mercy over arches any lesson I could pretend I learned from this. He is so good to us, ALL the time. Regardless of circumstance, I can truthfully say, His Word is true and ever comforting and that is more than enough to spur me on.
    This week was my first week solo with the kids, and I can’t tell you how wonderful it was to have the capacity to be a mom all by myself. (ok I had my sweet mother in law’s help Monday and sweet sister in law Wednesday) Even still, praise God for allowing me to step back in my role! Granted I have had some crazy person moments when being over zealous and braving the park-(der)-with 3. I was the banchee like mom screaming her kids into obedience. Don’t worry, it didn’t work, and I learned I am not ready for that circus…..yet.

    A couple items of note:
    a) I am over hats. They are so not me, but I so don’t have a choice, SO I will do you all a favor and wear ’em anyway.
    b) I am driving. It is rough, and I am pretty sure all 3 kids get car sick, but hey, we make it point A to point B dent-less.
    c) foot is still numb. Hence my amazing driving abilities. It’s cool though. If that is the worst thing I take away from brain tumor-dom, I am a happy woman.
    d) I am so deeply thankful for each and every person who has helped us through this-seriously I love you all. I don’t know how to properly thank you. Between our AMAZING parents, WONDERFUL Church body, and Ridiculously AWESOME friends, this journey has been joyful, and something to be thankful for. You all have forever changed my heart! I love you xo

    Now that I am done writing about recovery stuff, get excited…the next post will be about baby poops. 🙂 j/k it is the 3rd. It will be about why the 3rd never gets photographed and why she keeps wearing the same 4 outfits and why I haven’t utilized ONE bow.

  • Appointment update!

    Thank you sweet prayer warriors. How blessed I am by your faithfulness to lift me up in prayer, asking for God’s will in this whole situation. Thank you so much! The appointment was a smashing success, could not have gone better.
    Dr. says I am clear to drive!! Only problem is my reaction time is more on the Eor side of things and my right foot is numb which makes driving kind of overwhelming and scary. So… I might not be hurrying off to do donuts in the parking lot as I had hoped.
    Radiation is out as the risks outweigh the benefits, so the next step is another surgery. Which the doctor says can take place when I am recovered from this one. He is letting me choose when, and he gave me 6 months to a year. I think a year is looking good. If they do the surgery there is a 5% chance of regrowth, if they don’t do it, there is almost 100% chance of regrowth, so I am much more comfortable with the idea of another shaved head;) He says my recovery is going as well as expected and he wants me to start transitioning into normal life again at my own pace. Exactly what I needed to hear! So nice to not get a list of ” you cant’s”. Can you tell I am not a rule follower?
    Praising God for His hand in each and every step of this- and thanking Him for the continual mercy He shows. What a wonderful God we serve. I am a happy lady- completely content with what I have been given. I worship louder, pray harder and love a whole lot deeper. (just to get all Tim McGraw on you.) It has been a good thing and I am thankful my hope and trust is in a loving God whose provisions have made this journey joyful.