Ain't No Supermom

Author: Michelle White

  • Brain-Schmaime.

    Brain-Schmaime.

    Updated MRI, my new baseline….

    So that is what is left. Eek. Compared to this I will count my blessings. When I see this picture, I will admit, I get discouraged. I hoped more of it would be gone. The good news is it is significantly smaller, so praise God for that. And considering how it all went down in surgery, Dr. literally could not get one more piece of it, I was bleeding so bad, so that helps me have a peace about it. So I will thank God for allowing it to all go down the way it did and trust God will give me what I can handle, and we can just watch it, and I won’t have to have another surgery or have any brain/ headache issues.
    Friday’s appt was a smashing good time. I got half my staples out (yay for showers!!), got cleared to drive-YES!!! and effectively refused the scale. 🙂 Not so smashing part is I STILL can’t lift anything, which is killing me. I can’t play with or really effectively care for my little people and it is grating on me, not going to sugar coat it. There is spinal fluid trapped in my head, thus causing the problem of having to be upright 24 hours a day-and no lifting. So if you are a praying friend, I will kindly ask you to pray the fluid would drain naturally and quickly so I can get back to normal and play mommy again? Also, please pray for stamina. I am coming off the steroids, and I am feeling a lot more discomfort and much weaker than I was these last few weeks. Also mentally, not feeling as sharp, which scares me. Please pray that would not be permanent. I can’t really afford to get much dumber. Neither can Chad. 😉 Thank you sweet friends.
  • Park Day

    Park Day

    So mommy friends-what are you doing September 7th?
    Our church is hosting a FREE community park day to kick off the fall session of Navigating Motherhood. Mark your calendars! I want to invite all my local mommy friends and readers. If you live in the south orange county area and are looking for a FREE & FUN mommy’s group, this may be for you. Here is the link where you can find more information, and sign up if you are interested! I would love to see you there. 
    http://www.compasschurch.org/navigating-motherhood

  • Random Iphone pics

    Random Iphone pics

    I am a newly classified insomniac since the surgery. I am supposed to be sleeping upright due to swelling in my brain, thus leaving me uncomfortable, irritable and at odds with my once cherished bed. So I come downstairs, pray for you all, take care of pinterest updates, and then wander around until I have a good idea. Tonights good idea was getting some pics off my phone into my blog which will one day become a never-ending scrapbook. 
     Sweet Kylie and Halle (cousins and BFF’s) 8 weeks apart!
     Mamabird and Halle, showing off her outfit of the day. Halle likes jellies and lunching with Nonni. Who knew?
    Speaking of infant wardrobe; this post is about get 13x more annoying. LOOK at these cute shoes….eeek! If this doesn’t make having a girl fun, I don’t know what you people want from me.
     Her first pair of skinny Joe’s.
     Ballet flats to match her mommy. LAME-O. Not. 
     Whoops-AYE. Mamabird and I have been known to do some damage, and some damage we did. 
    Loveyouhunny!
    One Friday afternoon, I felt good for a couple hours, and we conquered the mall. Entirely too much fun.
    And to end on a positive note, B ripped his new shorts. Like a 5 inch gaping hole with his chonies flapping in the wind, and I couldn’t stop laughing at with him. He is mine through and through.

  • Oh Happy Day.

    I am in still in utter shock, as the things we pray for and entrust to Him are just like that, taken care of. Our good God has blessed us yet again. Results are in….Stage 1, benign, NO ABNORMAL markers. The tumor did test positive for progesterone receptors, which explains the massive and quick growth at the end of pregnancy. Unfortunately, this means another baby would jeopordize my health, so numero 4 may be outta the picture. Something to be praying about, also something to be praising God for. I am so thankful I feel like there is at least an answer to all this.  You never know how news like this will feel until you really think through how opposite the news could be, and what those implications are. To really think through leaving my family was not cool. This chickadee is praising God for salvation from this trial. Also my eternal salvation, the fact I am His child and He cares for me has gotten us through this year with joy. I wouldn’t trade this for the world.
    Anyway. The whole reason for this post is to THANK you, each and every one of you who has offered up a supplication, prayer on my/ our behalf. I know God hears, He answers and supplies us with all that we need for this life, without fail.

    Again I say to you, if two of you agree on earth about anything they ask, it will be done for them by my Father in Heaven. For where there are two or three gathered in my name, there I am among them.
    -Matthew 18:19-20

    We are so immensly blessed by each of you, you will never know how your love and support has carried us through this time. Each time I stop and think how we are so loved and cared for, tears start streaming-it is highly emotional. We just can’t thank you enough. So praise God for His good and perfect gifts that come in the form of you. xoxo

  • Post op update

    Well, I am here, alive and kicking. 🙂 I can’t help but praise God for all the ways He cares for me. Once again, He is outdoing Himself through the many mercies and acts of kindness He is showering on me. How foolish of me to doubt he would flawlessly carry me/ us through again? His grace is overwhelming, and I am thankful to understand that in a personal way. I certainly don’t deserve this awesome of a recovery, but I will take it. A big thank you to all who are caring for me, my sweet husband Chad, our AMAZINGLY sacrificial parents, our WONDERFUL church and friends. Neighbors, everyone….the love is pouring in and I am SO thankful this recovery has been what is has. The days are long, but that is because of my brain relearning everything, and having to think through all the things we don’t normally think through. It just takes longer to do stuff, I get worn out in 10 minutes, repeat. The anemia is frustrating but I am eating my spinach….like in bulk. It is good.  Bring it Popeye. Each day is getting better. Today we even went to the park for a couple hours. It was kind of miraculous actually. Considering where I was 2 weeks post op the last time.
    This week has been interesting. Halle decided to cut her 1st tooth. Of all the weeks, this is the one she decided she needed to join the club, no sleep and all. Also, neighbor has decided to to jackhammer for the week. He has removed all the old stone, (floor to ceiling), and installing 1×2 inch pebbles instead. REALLY. I made sure to let him know it was cool, I was on drugs. Boys have been truly awesome little men. They are QUIET, good listeners and are my treasures. This is Chad’s last week home, so I am reflecting on what a gift this time has been, He has done a stellar job wearing both our hats. So thankful he is mine.
    Looking forward to getting the pathology report next Friday, getting the raunchy staples out, and moving on. Thank you for your sweet prayers, thought, notes, meals, and love-they have all truly meant the world to us.