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Happy New Year 2020+ 10

Hi friends. Cheers to a NEW YEAR! Praise the Lord we all made it. I hope you had a joy-filled peaceful Christmas and New Years. If you had a break with kids, high five. You did it.

warning: longest post ever.

My prayers for this next year-for all of us reading, (myself included), are to pursue Christ and His agenda more aggressively. I have been told soft goals are immeasurable. I.E. I want to eat less chocolate. What is less?
This is a friends issue btw. Solid goal: I want to eat chocolate 1 x a week vs. 10.
Again. A friends issue.
My goal-read Gods word each day-write down the application of what I read. Serve or meet needs of at least one person/ family a week. Also, I am going to commit to reading one book a month because I am what you call an overachiever. Lastly, workout, or “challenge” my body. Due to the jiggle in my wiggle, it is time to get all south county and sweat. I had to type that out and express the goal.

There are so many praises. As in: no way to share the depth of answered prayers as they have affected so many lives on many levels. My gratitude transcends hugs, words, notecards for all your prayers. I am not saying prayers change God’s will, however, they sure encourage the display of His power. His mercy. His perfect and good character.

Rhonda is thriving. She is amazing: Walking, eating, pushing herself to do tasks and new things each day. She is going to be back to good by the grace and love of God. It’s not just her he has shown great kindness to, we all enjoy this miraculous recovery together and we get more of her.

Our Pastor reminded us this last weekend more time on earth is not the hope or end game. Happiness is not the goal. Our prayers and hearts need to be set on eternity, what happens when we take our last breath. Our purpose needs to be focused on Christ’ plan, not only our hopes. This was a good reminder that while we are encouraged to approach the throne with confidence,  our thinking and prayers need to align with His will for our lives. Submitting to His plan for us and what He chooses. His will is us sharing the gift of Salvation, the gospel.

That said, I want to share my hope. For this life and eternity to follow. How exactly have we gotten through the seemingly impossible trials? My faith. God’s promises and ultimate gift.

God is our one and only God.
He is our Creator. God is Holy, perfect in everything, in every way. Because He is perfect He is perfectly just. He must be separate from us and punish sin Hell: Eternal separation from His love, promise of perfection and a life forever void of sin, temptation, pain and suffering. We cannot exist with Him unless we are perfect and can live out a sinless life. Spoiler alert-we can’t.
He IS LOVE. His love is most beautifully displayed to us through the gift and sacrifice of His only Son, Jesus. He gave up His position in Heaven to live out the perfect, sinless life, be crucified and resurrected. Our sins are cancelled out due to His perfect obedience and should we put our faith and trust in the act of His sacrifice on the cross and resurrection, that it is ENOUGH. We too can be given the gift of forgiveness and Salvation: an eternity resting in perfection and joy. The response is naturally to turn away from the sin in our life, and live our lives for His glory, submit to His plan.

If this is not your heart, I beg you to dig deep and truly consider what you believe and why? Are you sure? There is no judgement on my end. just pray for God to reveal Himself to you. He isn’t going to show up all genie like and freak you out. I promise. He will put this on your heart, in your mind. My desire for you all to share my hope, faith and trust to a very real God. Thank you for reading my heart.

Surgery is set for January 21st at 7:30 am. I received an upsetting call from the first one who said the surgery was not a good idea. He strongly encouraged me to not move forward with surgery with anyone and proceeded to appeal to me by listing every single reason this was an extremely risky surgery and how could I do this to my family?

All the fears I had given to God and graciously been given peace about. This stirred up good ole…you guessed it-fear. I am going to perfectly real with you all, in my humanity, I am fighting anxiety big time right now. I mean FIGHTING. It’s a physiological experience, not necessarily a conscious one. I trust God’s leading me to this next path. I know He is faithful. He is trustworthy. He is with me at all times! I wake up, heavy chest, panicky mindset over nothing. Lets’s not even talk about trying to fall asleep. Breakfast? Did I order toilet paper? The important things in life. When I dare to begin to entertain the thoughts of what if? Have we used up His mercy? Can He really redeem this next step and bring me through? OF COURSE He can. But if He doesn’t-is my faith big enough to submit to His will? I am totally disappointed in myself. What an ignorant thought considering all He has given us! All I just shared with you and every single ridiculously generous answer to prayer. I promptly pray, confess, and remind myself of the reality of where my faith lies. And that my faith is big enough to trust Him with every detail.  Most of what I am anxious about is-Am I doing everything I can to relieve the burden where possible? What can I do to make this next season manageable?

Exhausting.

This is a constant look into the depths of my heart and redirecting of thoughts. Chad has endured a very challenging life trial with his mom, now me. Our parents share this burden as well. I think we are all running  on empty navigating seeking and petitioning Gods wisdom and will in my future as well as Rhonda’s. Please continue to pray.
-protection over our hearts and marriage
-Chad-steadfastness, energy, peace
-Children-That their hearts would be at peace, That their faith would grow, and can just be children through this next season

-that I would heal quickly and without complications so that He will be glorified and His goodness would be on display and I can get back to the roles He has assigned me

-for the surgeon, wisdom focus and that God would be at the center of every piece of this surgery

-anything else you can think of

I love you all so so much. Whether or not I know you, I love you. thank you all for your prayers, acts of love, care for myself and family. I will just never be able to share my gratitude.
xo

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Updates for both

Helllloooo!

I just cannot thank you all enough for all of your prayers, for myself and Rhonda. Going to give some incredible, God ordained updates on us both.

Rhonda:

She is incredible. So brave! They are sitting her up for a couple minutes and she stood, assisted, for a minute.  She looks so much better than a couple days ago. Closer to her old self. She does have tough road ahead, and our family covets your prayers for a full recovery, mental and physical.

Myself:

10 days ago, I met with an additional surgeon for a consult for surgery-if there was anything he could do. Never hurts to get a 5th consult. 😉

He walked into the room, completely confident. Big perfect smile. It is in Newport Beach people. He said he can resect close to 90% of it, if my sagittal sinus, (where my clot/ occlusion is), is completely blocked. If not, a big fat no. I made it home Wednesday morning and had the CT’s Thursday. I needed him to read ASAP so that he would be able to make a determination before my deadline to change insurance. This morning, I received a call…

It is BLOCKED  completely.

Happy tears! He wants to do the surgery as soon as possible, which would be January-when new insurance is takes effect. My heart is so thankful for the clear path God has blessed us with. He will go through a different part of my skull so that we don’t have to deal with the leaky incision debacle all over again. This, in addition to him not disassembling the titanium mesh that is covering a third of my skull, makes the surgery what I will call hopeful! I am so thankful. So so thankful. Thank you for lifting Rhonda and myself up to our Almighty.

 

 

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New blog for our Rhonda

I started Rhonda her own blog, in hopes that you will all subscribe to receive updates of ALL  that God is doing in His perfect time. He has been so responsive and merciful to hear and answer prayer after prayer.

We are keeping a journal of the countless mercies He has given us. What I see as His handprint through this all.

For all further updates, please subscribe or visit loveussomenanni.blogspot.com

My deepest gratitude to you all for your love and prayers.

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Pray pray pray

Things have changed a bit. Knowing her body does not tolerate iodine well AT ALL, these numerous CT’s are no doubt an added tax on her frail body. She has not woken yet. Her eyes are open, however there is no focus taking place. Her hands will not squeeze. She is trying to move around, however she is not coming to as we and the doctors had hoped.  The latest CT has shown what is called a converted stroke. The stroke has progressed, and there is a more visual brain bleed. This is something the Nuero person was hopeful about in the small size of it, however, it needs to be contained. This may have happened when they thinned the blood in surgery, as it was necessary. Please allow us to lean on you all again. This has been  a rollercoaster to say the least. I am not putting God in a box, so we will continue to beg for another, dare I say, miracle.

Please pray specifically for:

-reversal, immediate stopping of the bleed

-That there would be no permanent damage

-that whatever comes of the CT, she would be healed.

-that she would come out of Anesthesia soon being alert, responsive and her hands would be able to move.

PRAISE for the amazing doctors, kind nurses and countless mercies God has graciously given us. Praise she is responding to a nurse yelling in her face. We love you and covet your prayers.

They will be repeating this scan in 6 hours. Approximately 8pm. I could not wish you all could be here so I could hug you and thank you any more than I do right now. I know she will be so excited to see these well wishes and meet and love on you as well.

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Robo Rhonda

O Lord, you are my God;
I will exalt you; I will praise your name,
for you have done wonderful things,
plans formed of old, faithful and sure.

Isaiah 25:1

He did it!!!! Every. Single. Prayer. ANSWERED!!!!! This is a miracle for the 100 different events and details that had to happen to keep her alive and have a ridiculously perfect surgery and prognosis.

The doctors are immeasurably gifted, humble hero’s. God was working through Dr. Fischbein and Dr. Lee to accomplish this amazing feat. 10 hours later, she is on the way to being Nanni again by way of replacing her aorta with a synthetic polyester like material. She now has cage like stents in her corroded artery and intestines guaranteeing healthy blood flow. Wanna know the wax that seals this perfectly packaged success? The heart valve they used to replace her damaged valve is called Inspiris. Guess who makes that valve? Edwards Life Sciences. Guess who works there? Starts with “R” ends with an “ob”. Jaw::floor. This magnificent life saving medical device was born in Robs incredible company. Boom.

I want you all to know you are the real heros as you faithfully trusted our GOOD God and continued to lift her/ us all up and pray. And pray. And pray again.

“When two or more are gathered in my name, there I am among them”

Matthew 18:20

This verse speaks of two or more, and sounds so small. How much more powerful are thousands?

You warriors will forever be remembered and embraced with our deepest gratitude as we all look upon her beautiful face each and every time. Where would we be without you all, your begging and pleading and continual petitioning? Not here. Thank you thank you thank you! Forever and always.

It is my strongest conviction this occurred to glorify and magnify our mighty and loving God in the most dream like way. His faithfulness endures and you all, praying friends or not, have a front row seat to what a true miracle looks like. This is not luck, the universe showing favor, this is the work of the Almighty. This is faith.

What happened over the last 36 hours completely rocked our world and deepened our faith 100 fold in the one and only God of perfection!

Here is why we are silently, (we are in a hospital after all), screaming with joy, in complete awe.

Upon arriving to the hospital, Chad and I were apart of the conversation being had by the Doctor and Rob, my mom and dad. Basically giving us little to no hope. Hospitals were not accepting her or had no beds, not enough surgeons. Delivering the message of the reality of a massive stroke and near fatal tear of the aorta- heart to hip, get ready to say goodbye. Their pity face made me sad for them, and led us to launch into prayer mode.

The doctors assumption she was not going to pass the neurological test to even make step 2 a possibility led them to hault any movement toward surgery. So we waited. They did not know our God.  So she passed.  Only then, they were forced to move forward. The surgeon humbly shared he was not the right surgeon for this kind of surgery. He wanted her at Stanford, the most qualified hospital with the most qualified surgeon. After much petitioning, At he end of the night, Stanford finally accepted her. For an unknown reason, or because God knew we needed this to further exercise our faith, they could not reach the surgeon that night. To deny that our happy hopes were deflated would be a lie. We were frustrated. We all knew and encouraged one another that He would not bring her this far for it to end there. We went to bed at peace, and awoke having been given 6 hours of sleep. We then arrived at the hospital to find out they were trying to figure out the air transportation  and get a hold of the doctor. Hours later the doctor’s assistant informed us the Stanford medical helicopter could not fly due to fog. Keep in mind every second is critical. It takes one deep breath, cough, sneeze to fully rupture the artery, and Rhonda would be in the presence of our Savior. We then found out there was a Santa Barbara helicopter that was willing to fly her as far as they could go before hitting the fog  they planned on an ambulance meeting the helicopter if it couldn’t continue. Keep in mind this was a 2 hour flight or 4.5 hour drive.

Guess what cleared? Yep. They were off and she arrived at Stanford 2 hours later to be rushed into the operating room. A 10 hour, yes 10 hour surgery ensued without one word. Zero communication and we all pow wowed it up eating weird food, yapping and laughing our way through the hours clothed in peace and joy.

That moment, God’s full glory in this transaction was realized as these tools of our Almighty came through the doors in the most amazing way…

Big smiles. Surgery was a success. Her kidney failure is regressing, she is urinating. They repaired the broken, reinforced the weak. Redeemed the loss. How illustrious of our salvation. We are broken. We are weak. Because of Jesus’s work on the cross, sacrifice, WE ARE REDEEMED. Not just restoration, “fixing”, but making all things new and more brilliant than before! Those prayers? That God would be glorified-open the heavens! Glorified indeed!

So…what happened?

Rhonda had a minor stroke, (you would never know it), in 2008 and has battled high blood pressure and a partially blocked corroded artery  ever since.

During breakfast Friday, her blood pressure randomly spiked, causing the pressure that led to the dissection, which then in turn caused the stroke. 

You guys. God delivered Rhonda-moreso us all. He is so BIG. We woke up from the nightmare. Good morning sweet friends!

THANK YOU for your endless prayers.

Big hugs and much love,

Michelle and Family