I am feeling pretty embarrassed with all the updates. I am sorry for consuming your news feeds and updating so often. That being said, things are pretty serious, and the one constant comfort I have is knowing I can beg God for deliverance through prayer and true and complete dependence on Him. Knowing I have exhausted the resource of prayer, brings me the peace I need to press on. Two things: one, I was informed the type of infection I am at risk for is meningitis. The life threatening kind. To say I am disappointed in my surgeons communication skills is the understatement of the year. Second, there was a major complication with the placing of the drain-the control valve failed and I lost a very large amount of spinal fluid. Along with the additional leak comes yet another pathway for meningitis, and I spent the night in tremendous, uncontrollable pain, the worst headache and backache I have ever had. It is still not draining properly, and I have been warned, they will most likely redo the drain today. With anesthesia, which means recovery starts alllll over again. Considering the new additional risk factors and pain ahead, I am discouraged. I will not lose heart and I resolve to continue to trust in Gods sovereign nature. Thank you for praying! Thank you for your notes of encouragement. I can’t get back to everyone but I appreciate it all the same.
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Dear sister-in-Christ <3 I am so encouraged by your beautiful attitude in the midst of this tremendous difficulty! What honor you bring to our sovereign God!
Have you ever seen the picture where the Christian is hit in the head by a falling rock and cries, “Why God?” and then looks up to see Jesus being pummeled with the rocks that otherwise would have hit the believer… Jesus says, “I’m sorry. Did I miss one?” or something like that. It is meant to bring conviction and gratitude to Christ for everything that He endured for us…
But BETTER FAR is the TRUTH that NOTHING slips past our God! 🙂 Nothing comes into our lives that is not sovereignly willed by Him! And though we do not understand it now, we will see how He indeed worked ALL THINGS together for our good!
And Jesus took the full wrath of God against our sin so that our debt is paid and now God CAN cause all things to work together for our good! EVERYTHING–even our SUFFERING; even DISCIPLINE–is PAID FOR by the blood of Jesus!!! It is a love gift from the Father, meant to sanctify us and conform us to the image of God’s dear Son!
How amazing is that?!
We are praying for you! Keep shining with the light of the Savior!!! 🙂 <3
On my knees in prayer for you sweet sister! God, please grant her safe passage through this trial and show your mighty hands of mercy so that all may behold and give glory to YOU! Give Michelle strength physically and spiritually to face this battle with full confidence that You have ordained her life for your glory and her good. Give her peace in knowing You love her, died for her and cherish her – that she is your precious daughter and you will carry her through this, Lord, one step at a time! Thank you, Lord, for the hope we have in You alone! Thank you, Jesus, for giving your life to us in death and in resurrection so we have hope beyond understanding. Amen!
Praying for you!!!
Michelle, Praying for you, Chad, the kids, guidance for your drs, and all those that are there to support you!.
I stumbled across your blog and I want you to know you are an incredible woman with such an amazing perspective on life. You inspire me to be a God fearing woman. I love that in every aspect of your life you desire to give all the glory to God. In the mist of your pain and loss you continue to rely on God’s strength and guidance in your life. In the mist of your trials and pain you are completely dependent on God. You are such an amazing woman, mother, and wife. Praying for you.
2 Samuel 22:3 “my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold and my refuge, my savior; you save me from violence.”
I’m crying as I read your post; just alerted (interim prayer update) the prayer team, staff and Pastors of the gravity of your situation. Oh Michelle, my heart breaks for you. Praying my dear, that you get a breakthrough and that God in His great mercy would deliver you from this continuing nightmare, and that things would start to turn around.
Love you dear sister, Debbie