Getting Personal

Hello 3rd Trimester….Oh, how I thought you would never come. 27 weeks deep and we are alive! Woohoo. This last week was a bad one, but other than that, I have to say we have been blessed with a great pregnancy. The baby/ me-who takes ownership of this anyway? has single umbilical artery which was good reminder that healthy pregnancies are a gift. Most of these cases are fine, a few end up delivering early due to growth issues which I believe we will be doing anyway.

To answer the question of the hour: YES, we are planning to do permanent sterilization. A LOT of people seem very interested in the future olympics of our reproductive parts. Sadly, shop is closed. While I would love another and then probably another, I believe we need to be good stewards of what we have been given. And I don’t think I, as a mom, could give much more of my health away. This pregnancy was a huge surprise. And scary in many ways if I am being honest. We are still praying about exactly what to do, because it is hard to say in one breath, I trust you God with everything, but not with this. I still struggle with whether or not it is a sin issue on my behalf of wanting to control things, or if we are in fact being good stewards by preventing….it is hard. It is a hard thing to make a final call on when we both want to seek God’s will and haven’t been given a total peace with it all. We both feel like this last week was more than we could handle, or pass off to someone should I have to go through another surgery/ hospital visit/ chronic headache. So there it is.

Lastly, thank you to all of you who have been praying for me this last week. God has given me relief, so huge praise. Huge praise for our wonderful parents who drop EVERYTHING to care for us. We are blessed blessed blessed, and thankful, thankful, thankful. There are so many prayer requests that I am consumed with-it just seems as though it all comes at once. We have so many hurting friends, and we hurt with you. My heart is heavy. I love you sweet friends.