This post kind of tells it’s own story. This blog is not a teaching blog, a picture blog, or (obviously) an organized blog. If you have been reading my posts, you should know by now, there are no mission statements, no guidelines. Kind of describes my person actually. I suppose that is why I continue to write. Our Church’s moms group has asked me to share my testimony-And if I am being honest, I already have sweaty palms and I can feel my saliva glands shutting down. I am nervous. Of course I am nervous. I am about to stand up on behalf of the Maker of this world, the Center of my universe, and share what is rightfully His-His work in my life and, my life. The accuser, satan is whispering retired truths in my ear. Failures, my UNqualifications, and encouraging me to cower in fear. And he is right. I fail more times than I am comfortable admitting. But it isn’t that we just fail as Christians, it is what do we do about it?? Are we married to the sins and refuse to let them go? Do we stand uprightly and ask for forgiveness, begging God to change our hearts, and rely on Gods strength? Remembering that our sins are seen as far as the east is from the west? Or do we just not care-abuse His grace and quench the Spirit. Not wanting to BE a hypocrite, the answer is in the pudding. (there is one right answer) I would hope our pursuit of holiness is worth more than the selfish sins we cling to.
I am unqualified. I am not medaled with perfect execution of Gods directives for our lives. I have not studied and labored in Bible school to have any authority over what I speak of. All I have is His perfect Word and truth: His work in my life. I am clearly no super christian. I fumble over words when it matters most, I do not have a set time during the day to read my bible, I do it at all hours or when I get the quiet to think. I sometimes fail to show my husband the respect he deserves. I do not remember to pray for each and every person like I intend to. I am human and have a memory problem, remember? I may or may not have yelled at my kids on the way to church. (multiple times-cringe).
God’s purpose is not to idolize my inadequacies and fall prey to fear. He is not expecting me to be the unicorn of the human race. Instead he is asking me to pursue Jesus. Pursue His agenda and ask for strength, mercy and utter and complete dependence on Him. As far as I understand it, His agenda is to glorify HIM. Serve HIM. And I am praying by completely leaving the fear of failing at His feet, He will be glorified. I would be so blessed if you would pray for that too. Specifically from now until the 3rd week in November.
“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out all fear. For fear has to do with punishment and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.“
1 John 4:18
“so as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God.”
Sweet Ruby, this post is for you. You asked me when I was going to write a post, and this is what has been weighing on my heart. I love you and thank you for caring.